I just want to start out by saying, I’m so glad yesterday is over. It wasn’t the greatest of days. I guess there were plenty of signs that it wasn’t going to be a great day, but like a dumbass, I ignored them.

The first part of the day, I felt so frustrated. Like nothing was going right. Well…it wasn’t. I went to the bank, to get some money out so I could ship out my DVD orders. As I was walking to the Jeep, I thought to myself; Man….it’s really cold out here. I better get something warm on. I would hate to get a flat tire when it’s this cold and only have this thin jacket. I said screw it, and left for the bank. Got to the bank, and my deposit hadn’t cleared yet, so I went back home, feeling very discouraged.

I felt pretty worthless. People waiting on my DVD, and I can’t even afford to send them out. I got that feeling of, nothing is going to work out today. I tried really hard to stay positive. Later, our new friend from a town away, asked if we wanted to come over and hang out for a little while. So we went to his house, and hung out until almost midnight. We decided that it was getting pretty late, so we started driving home. Part of the way home, I hear this really weird sound from the back of the Jeep. I thought it was just maybe something I ran over or something. I saw a gas station ahead, so I planned on stopping there and seeing what the noise was. I never made it to the gas station. The sound, apparently, was my tire quickly going flat, until it was obvious what the problem was. I looked down at myself, and realized what a horrible mistake I had made. My mind fucking TOLD ME to put something warmer on JUST IN CASE I got a flat tire. It was about 20 degrees out, and the tire wasnt easy to change either. Luckily the model of Jeep I have, carries a full-size spare.

So I loosen the lug nuts, jack it up, and remove the lug nuts. Then the damn tire won’t come off. I’m sitting here, freezing my ass off, pissed off, trying to stay calm, and it’s not budging. I check the manual. LOL on this one. The manual says, remove lug nuts, pull off tire. This makes me laugh. So then I think, maybe it has something to do with being a full time 4-wheel drive Jeep. Half out of anger, half out of thinking it would work, I started kicking the shit out of the tire. I’ve seen my older brother have to do this on a few of his vehicles, but he also has an anger problem, lol. After a few minutes of kicking all around the rim and tire, POP! The tire budged loose. I slammed the spare on there and we were on our way. Not sure what happened to the tire though, the entire outside of the tire looked like it had rubbed on something, and I had just checked the pressure in that tire earlier the same day.

Unfortunetly, the story doesn’t end there. Jason and I decided to stop at the store on the way home. Do some late night shopping. We got the necessary food we needed. Some chicken, butter, milk, bread, the basics. I didn’t have any money, but I did have my Food Stamp card. So we get what we need, and go to checkout. The order came to about $75 and my luck would have it, the register made that annoying, something is fucked up noise. We only had $14 on the Food Card. Of course, after this long and frustrating day. As if it wasn’t bad enough. So there we were, ringing-back one item at a time until it was in our price range. I’m so glad I do my shopping in the middle of the night, or I might have just balled my way out of the store.

So as I said, I’m so glad yesterday is over. I slept in today, and when I woke up, I was very happy to see my bank deposit went through. So me and Jason went and mailed stuff out at the post office, and we were able to pay the electric, gas, and internet bills. Now we just have the water bill to worry about until next month.

It’s so crazy how in theory, everday seems exactly the same. You wake up, do your thing, and go to bed. Yet days are so different. One day might feel like the slowest day of your life, while the next might seem to just fly by. Or one day, you can win the lottery, and the next day, you lose someone close to you. Or even how somedays can seem like the worst ever, only to find out the following day that things could get worse.

I recently ready that positive thoughts make for a positive person. If you have negative thoughts, that trains your brain to only think negative. So I’m going to start working harder than the past, to make sure I only think positive. For me, for Jason, for you guys, for the whole world, and I ask you to do the same. Even for just one day, try to take every event that happens, and make it as positive as possible.

As for me, I’m going to watch the first season of Breaking Bad. So many people have told me how great that show is, but I have been putting it off. They are on their last season (Season 5) and I really wanted to wait until the series ended so I could watch it beginning to end, all at once. Well my friend made me watch the first episode of the first season last night, and now I’m hooked.

Until next time, think positive thoughts, and don’t forget to pay it forward at every opportunity!!